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" I have found the paradox that when you love until it hurts, then there is no more hurt, only love."
saw it today in choir room and felt, how very, very true.
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Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I really, really think i learnt a lot from this experience. i always thought, and i think we all did, that it was very very, somehow explicably, important for rgs choir to get gold with honours. it seemed to be something that we all expected and set our sights on. so i think when we didn't get that honours, we were just so disappointed. as in, we felt that we deserved more than just this. and i remember telling myself to be calm before they announced the results. and chloe like took my hand as they announced "Choir 76. Raffles Girls Secondary. Gold." and then there was this kind of weird clapping and then silence and although there was no sound, a lot of choir people around were already crying. see, that just proves yet again that we're more than a choir. we're a family. i think back on all those practices since last november and i feel that we've really, really, grown together. and that's the most important. we cry together, we laugh, we make music, we sing, and we feel together.
like when we were standing on stage, we were nervous, but i felt this unity and this protectiveness and love surrounding us as i sang, and i just felt for a moment that there was a lot in this world to cherish. and when i stepped down from that stage, i knew we didn't maximise our potential up there, but yupp what matters is that we really tried. i think some people in the audience got our message for ave maria, and to me, that's what's most important. not the results, but the message we got across. and for that, rgs choir, i'm very very proud of us all.
i'm sorry, dear sec four batch for letting you all down but i promise, i promise that batch'11 will get back the HONOURS for rgs choir! and we'll still be the same, not stressed nor anything but the crazy awesome batch that we are. and i really, really feel that we're this one special choir, and even if the whole world regards us as just a gold choir without honours, we all know deep down inside that we're more fabulous than they think we are, and even if it's just us as a small choir standing insignificantly against the wide backdrop of the world, we'll give them tooth and nail and fight for all we're worth. It has been the awesomest experience ever with rgschoir, and i'm eternally grateful for that.
I love you, rgs choir. <3>bianche,rgs choir sop 120th April 2009
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Choir today was very very fufilling really i never expected to get so emotional and cry in the midst of ave but haha i suppose it's good cause it shows my growing involvement in the song. really i think ave maria is one of the most beautiful songs ever it's not just about the notes and the way Franz Biebl placed the chords it's also about how it's so simple but talks about humanity and how forgiveness is so near yet so hard to give. i think it's very, very true. i only teared at the start of the video cause i was just so touched by their voices, and how they really put their heart into the song to reach out and touch others. i was just thinking that i could never really sing like them and the song was just so beautiful that i couldn't help tearing. Then when we sang Ave afterwards, it was like a barrier crashed in me and i couldn't help it, heard em crying behind me and then i just felt so super sad for a lot of people and lost friendships. and ms loo was talking about how it all boils down to simple humanity and forgiveness and praying for mercy and a lot went through my mind. i'm sorry i didn't mean to freak you out or make you cry emeline. ):
anyway, ave now holds a whole new meaning for me. it's like when you reach the ending and find the strength in you to spin the air and punch out those last beautiful notes and when i'm holding the ending c chord, i hear the F(omg the f chord combined with the high G and A) and my heart just wrenches apart. i think i learnt a lot from choir, and it's in the midst of singing those songs when you youself get touched and start feeling sad about life. but i suppose it's alright, we all have our ups and downs in life and it's only through all this that we truly learn how to be human. yupp i don't regret not going to ora cause today was really special. <3>
And we have 2 days left jiayou we can do it- GWH will be ours HAHA. <3>
anyway, took mrt with sabrina after choir ended. went to northpoint to eat lunch at KFC then we really talked a lot. haha thanks i think that was a meaningful discussion(like philo COI) haha and i'm glad we said what we wanted to say. :) though most of the time it was pure gossip and weird loud laughter. but people have been telling me i'm stressed and i'm becoming very weird so i guess it's good that i had fun today! :D
haha on friday morning assembly the sunrise was damn beautiful it was like this glorious conflagration of pink, blue, red, purple, orange, white, and yellow. and it was like the sky was a lightening purple blue and wisps of sky in between were fiery red and orange it was such a sght. like when i stepped out of my schoolbus i said "OMG" very loudly in the middle of the parade square. and sorry kim for dragging you out to see a sunrise that was no longer exsistent. >.<
yupp and during chinese i showed chu this drawing Awa did of easter eggs in a basket:
Bianche: eh chu, look, easter eggs so cute!
Chu Ren(confused): i thought they were poisonous mushrooms!
HAHA.
hmm went home on mrt with sabrina after that, watched the marvellous sunset together. we were so weird like practically straining our necks to see the sky through trees and the stupid tall buildings.
i love you, rgs choir, all the way for syf 2009! <3
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
hah okay i'm back. just wanted to say i heard ave maria on youtube and have to say i want a voice like that. awww it's damn beautiful and the last high G and A note are beautiful. esp with an f note as the base chord. hereby my new favourite cadences are IV, V and I. (in sequence) ave maria is beautiful, let's do it rgs choir, we have 5 days left. <3
jiayou choir, love you all! rest and drink water and honey and eat strepsils and lozenges. :D
i love rgs choir! <3
it is okay to wait for people to post, no?
5:59 PMhaha i have a lot to say but i also have a lot to do so i shall do my physics PT and catch up on homework first yeah? then i shall blog long soon. :)
IOWA. that's all for now, haha. sorry! wait i still don't know if my pt has an extension.
i promise, i will blog. (read the top lines, yo!)
oh yes and thanks guys for the wonderful Sing finals well-wishes in case y'all are wondering why i never reply it's cause my card ran out of money okay not cause i'm leaving y'all/ too busy crying/whatever weird reasons y'all bombarded me with. >.<
i promise i will blog, read all the above lines, YO!
right. <3